tis not meant to be

... spent over an hour typing up some emo self-reflective shitte instead of sleeping a new entry, to find it gone; when i "published" it ~ with nary a fcukin'whimper (okay to be fair, there still was a-third left of the original after attempting "recovery post" knnbccb) ... and i reckon tis not meant to be ... maybe i should just keep to the new "introductory to new thingies"-style (as of recent