> this alien realm of mine

... this self-alienation, this gnawing-itch, this uncontrollable urge to ... create ... to create my own world, my own domain where i am lord of myself and of my own actions, where others and what they think matters naught, where sincerity is a virtue and not to be misunderstood. where concern for a fellow humanbeing is not a act of malice. where clarity resides in all thoughts and intentions ..